I tried to write a poem but this was all that came out. This one word. It’s one of the scariest feelings. There is nothing that you can use to describe it because it consumes you, loneliness is all i feel. Hatred for who i’ve become, what i feel and what i think. I have been trying to write poems for the past couple of days, forcing myself to sit with a book or my laptop and write– but I end up staring at a black page for ages with no thoughts and no creativity. I’ve shut everyone that I love out, letting no one in, because every time I do they cause me pain and I cause them pain. All I can say is that this word is ruining my life, this feeling is taking all the love I have and killing me from the inside out.